Thursday, 17 November 2011

What is wrong with me?

I have been craving things every single evening, probably due to restricting so much during the day. I'm fine during the day, though. Anyway, I went to a nearby shop/bakery called Gregs (those from the UK will know) and bought a lot of food and just binged. It's incredibly greasy food and it made me feel I went and purged it, except that I couldn't even purge it all out - probably less than half. I don't know why, but I just couldn't throw up the rest. I still feel disgusting - physically and with myself. The thing is that I actually found the food quite repulsive even when I was eating it. The sausage rolls were too greasy and the cupcakes were too sickening. I don't think I even crave junk food anymore - I feel like I've become a bit scared of food. I much prefer healthy foods now, anyway - last night I made a Japanese stir fry and it was wonderful.
I guess now I'm off to burn off the enormous amount of calories that I've consumed.


1 comment:

  1. Thanks for the comment! really made my day :)
    i know what you mean about Greggs, how can pastry contain so much grease?? i can't resist their festive bakes though, they're amazing. good job they only do them at christmas!

    stay strong, you'll get there :)